it's my last night in
hanoi and this is not a real post, but more a little putting thoughts
on paper/ to computer ramble. i just returned from halong bay which
was magical, but today was a just a travel day and nothing but
annoying. now i have returned from a fancy restaurant where i went to
out of sheer exhaustion because it was close and paid...well let's
just say...a lot. i didn't even really enjoy the food anymore and
would have happily traded it for a bottle of red and some homemade
carbonara. yes, i am this traveller now and it makes me wonder
if i'm a good traveller at all. is a good traveller supposed to want
to go home? ever? or eat carbonara?
i recently read from a
some people that they live to travel. and it sounds exciting and
fascinating and it smells live unwavering adventure, doesn't it?
i think it's a load of
crap.
i thought a lot about it
for the last week or so once i started to look forward to going home.
i think if you live to travel then you are doing something wrong with
the living part. living to travel, implies not really living unless
you travel and unless you are a proper nomad that's just a bit sad i
think. i look forward to going home now, because i actually like my
life a whole lot, i live it in a way that suits me. sure i also have
times and events that are more exciting than any given tuesday, but
in the end i don't want to live from one vacation to the next. that's
not living, that's sort of just being...
last year i realized that
i become a different person when i travel, the vacation me. that was
a lovely feeling, but this time it didn't feel that new and out of
the ordinary anymore, which made me think, maybe i am that
person after all and all along. that person that smiles a lot, that
goes with the flow, that doesn't sweat the small stuff. i am still me
on vacation, i am “same same, but different” as the
vietnamese say. and so i decided i don't need to live to travel. i
will be quite alright just living and travel sometimes to remind me
of it.
