how i kicked a random monday's ass.

last week was a tricky one. i was still feeling sick and thus didn't do any yoga, work was hectic and then things went wrong and i almost got my anxiety back, and i had to come to terms with the fact that the whole germany trip and the situation with my dad still has be pretty shaken up.

just to admit that last fact already made it a bit better. breathing and looking objectively at my work situation helped too. i also practised two full bikram classes over the weekend and got at least started with my writing assignments. so all and all, not bad after what i consider pretty much a week from hell. but still not perfect as i was still dreading work this week every moment.

while i was lying on my mat saturday i was thinking - i'm not supposed to think while on my mat - but hey, sometimes i have some really such great thoughts and ideas on my mat, i usually only get those under the shower. and since there is only so much showering one can do in a day, i just ran with the thought and didn't judge myself for inappropriate timing. i realized that i am a really strong person. i can deal with stuff, i can handle a lot of tricky situations. i may have some bad dreams, i may feel shaky, i may cry, okay make that sob, at times, but i don't break. i manage to get through things somehow. that thought was so fascinating and so big in a way that i almost started crying again right then and there on my mat.

with that realization tightly scribbled on an inner 'note to self' i decided yesterday, again while i was on my mat, to not be scared of the week ahead. i decided to take it full on, and kick ass.

and i did. i kicked monday's ass and wow what a feeling! with that in mind i'm wishing you a great week too, kick whatever you need to kick.

smiling in the rain.

as you can see i had a little face lift. i also finally added a facebook page and i am also working on a whole bunch of stories and ideas. i must admit that though i have the time, this weather is making me quite lethargic, so posts are not coming along as quickly as i would like them to. so while i trying to nap write i just wanted to leave you with a little monday inspiration.

Monday's bachelor.

No news about the fact that Mondays usually suck. It’s in their nature. Today is no exception. Today is the epiphany of a Monday. I went on a very civilized pizza date last night and returned with no voice and no idea whatsoever if the guy wants to see me again. To make it clear: I would very much like to see him again. Any idea how much it sucks and pulls on my patience (which is little at the best of times) to not know whether he feels the same?

Those are the moments when I love a concept like “The Bachelor” purely for its lack of mixed messages. You get a rose or you don’t. Rose great, he wants to get to know you better; no rose cool, you can move on with your life. No mixed messages. Also you get your answer within 24 hours, which I find crucial for my sanity. In real life things are all different and in my opinion quite messed up. There is no answer within 24 hour guarantee, it can take up to a week and still be acceptable in some cultures. Some answers aren’t even real answers. There is usually a lot of maybe floating around. Insane driving maybe. When was maybe ever an acceptable concept?

The other problem is that these days it is not even clear who is the bachelor and who the contestant. Am I supposed to sit around, just assume and wait or take the initiative and hand out a rose myself? And if a certain someone* decides to go against better judgement and hands out the modern day version of a rose aka SMS themselves, what is an acceptable time frame to accept or decline the token of interest? Answers please! And no, an answer with maybe in it, does not count.

UPDATE: I just got a lovely SMS from a certain bachelor, saying thank you, but no thank you. So here I am now - no rose, but happy to know that some men still have balls.

*Yes, we all know that would be me. I know, I know...

Yellow Monday.

Yesterday I all of a sudden had a craving for anything yellow. Maybe inspired by the fresh orange juice and gooseberries at PnP that I felt were going to be really good for my still aching body. It seemed to help instantly as I almost ran out of the house in the evening to do a yoga class, the first since Thursday. When I came back I felt so amazing I drew a little sun on my 30 day challenge board, which admittedly had suffered from a lack of attention due to my lack of attendance.

This morning after long days of suffering (or so it felt like) I rose like phoenix from the ashes and would have put on something yellow if I had anything in my closet. The sunshine outside made up for it and I felt tempted to show a picture of my flat with the new yellow mirror bathed in sunlight. Unfortunately the DIY project didn’t turn out as nice as the inspiration, so now everything will be re-painted in dark blue instead. Of course, it’s me, so it hasn’t happened yet and won’t go with my yellow theme of the day anyhow.

Yellow, here you go. Facts about yellow thanks to Wikipedia and friends.

Shades of Yellow
These words are synonymous with yellow or represent various shades of the color yellow: banana, cadmium yellow, chartreuse, chiffon, cream, golden, goldenrod, khaki, lemon, mellow yellow, saffron, topaz, yellow ocher.
I would like to argue how khaki made it on this list. In which world does khaki have anything to do with yellow??

Yellow in drawings.
The comic book character Green Lantern was afraid of the colour yellow.
Flavaphobia?
13th episode of the Simpsons was called ‘The colour yellow’

Yellow and printed.
Yellow" ("giallo"), in Italy, refers to crime stories, both fictional and real. This association began in about 1930, when the first series of crime novels published in Italy had yellow covers.

The name and concept of "Yellow Pages" came about in 1883, when a printer in Wyoming working on a regular telephone directory ran out of white paper and used yellow paper instead.

Yellow Holidays.
The Christian holiday of Easter is represented by the colors yellow and lavendar because the crocus flower, which is yellow and lavender, blooms in Europe in the spring.
Good luck with that, Easter Bunny! Luckily a crocus can push through the snow.

Yellow Transportation.
In some countries taxicabs are commonly yellow. This practice began in Chicago, where taxi entrepreneur John D. Hertz painted his taxis yellowbased on a University of Chicago study alleging that yellow is the color most easily seen at a distance.

And of course:

Yellow Yoga.
Manipura or Solar Plexus Chakra is representative of vitality and will. When this chakra is open, it acts to empower a person and help them find their personal strength. It will help turn dreams and goals into reality.
Sounds like a plan.

Simply Yellow.
Yellow shines with optimism, enlightenment, and happiness. Shades of golden yellow carry the promise of a positive future. Yellow will advance from surrounding colours and instil optimism and energy, as well as spark creative thoughts.

Seems like I finally had a good craving yesterday.